Good Lord it is friggen hard work. I generously offered to work in the kennels over Christmas, since I had 5 days off. NEVER doing that again. I am in so much pain right now it's just not even funny. All of my muscles just ache and ache. My upper arms are in death mode thanks to having to walk a lot of big, strong, unpredictable dogs, including an ENORMOUS doberman who had a lovely nature but was just built like a body builder and basically just walked wherever the hell he wanted to. I think my back is in shock... it hurts, but I have a feeling it's going to get worse. And my neck is ridiculous thanks to looking down at the surgery table for a good 5 hours every day. I really really hope that my body adjusts to the physical labour soon.
Today, in terms of my tiredness, was probably my worst day so far. My body is aching, and right now, annoyingly, my sinuses are having a top time creating as much green snot as is humanly possible, which then blocks up all over my face which makes my face ache. So there's the pain, then the small amount of sleep (6 - 7 hours at the moment, with no midday nap) plus the fact that it is summer and RIDICULOUSLY busy and it's like my brain has just gone 'Sorry, too hard' and checked out and gone to Bali. Every time I talk to someone on the phone I have to write down their name immediately otherwise it just goes straight out of my head. Whenever I talk to someone face to face I have to get them to repeat their name because I just totally forget it. I nearly crashed out at lunch today. I really think it's the new drugs getting me through each day at the moment, because I'm feeling very borderline.
The thing is.... is it good for my body?? I mean, the drugs don't stop the narcolepsy, they just keep me awake. I don't know what I'm doing to my brain by keeping myself awake awake awake all day and not much sleep relief at night. I hope this memory loss stuff isn't permanent.