This is also going to be my problem this weekend. I was invited to go to Canberra for a few days with my friends (yes, they actually invited me!!! I was excited) and I have now organised my work so that I can actually go... but I know how much my tiredness frustrates and annoys them so I need to make sure I take enough dex so that I stay awake and don't become a burden like I always do. I'm actually considering taking 15mg, which is the limit I can take.... but I've never had that much before. I'm just so grateful that I was actually asked to come out with my friends, I don't want to piss them off and let them down by having to crash out earlier than what they want to. Plus I'm working the whole day before we leave which will aid in my tiredness.
Sometimes I don't know what's worse... having to personally deal with narcolepsy, or knowing how much the people around me hate having to deal with my narcolepsy. This is why most of the time when I'm asked out I just say no. I'd rather stay home and let other people have fun, than ruin everyone else's fun by being a walking zombie for half the night, or forcing someone else to go home early because I can't drive myself home. I hate it. I just want to be a normal twenty-something... be out to all hours and not have to pay for it for days and days afterwards. And not have to deal with the disappointed looks on people's faces when I say, "I need to go home," or even finding out that I'm no longer allowed to make my own decisions like that - people just make them for me by not even asking me out at all. Can't they just fucking understand that I'm not like this on purpose?? I don't specifically get tired all the time JUST to piss them off?? Bah.
On a lighter note.... here is a picture of quite possibly the most wealthy narcoleptic in the world.